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Sunday, 19 October 2008

It's how you look at it.

My hair is course, but curls never fall out.

My ass is huge, but guys love it and girls tell me they're jealous of it.

I'm fat, but I wear it better than most.

I have a baby face, but it's endearing.

I never wear makeup, but I have a great complexion.

My voice is deep, but it makes me sound sexy.

I have huge feet, but they keep me standing.

I have sensitive skin, but it's abnormally soft.

I have one dimple when I smile, but it's unique.

I have low self-esteem, but it makes me humble.

I have dark circles, but it draws more attention to my eyes.

I can't make jokes, but I have a funny personality.

I overthink things, but I'm always prepared.

I have pale skin, but it makes me look like a porcelain doll.

I cry easy, but I'm sympathetic to other people's feelings.

I have large hips & thighs, but they give me curves.

My teeth aren't white, but I have a great smile.

I'm very broad, but it's better to hold onto.

My nose is round, but it's cute.

My eyes are too big, but they're beautiful.

I used to think I'm ugly, but not anymore.

Wednesday, 17 September 2008

ugggggh!

I just. I don't understand myself sometimes.

I'm SO mad at Tucker I can't see straight. He treats me like complete shit. He expects me to pick him up, take him places, let him do what he wants, come to the ferg so I can jump start his car....but then at bethany's party he got smashed and started hitting on all of the girls RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME and grabbing their asses and shit. And he knew it was pissing me off but he kept looking at me and laughing. And THEN he gets super sick and starts puking in my bathroom and just EXPECTED me to take care of him! Made me sit by him for a couple hours and he wouldn't let me talk cause he said his head hurt. So I'm like WTF let me leave then! And I would and he'd just call my name to come back in there.

So I message him about how much it pissed me off, and he just ignored it. And he's been acting weird around me at school.

I KNOW how much of a loser he is! I know how much of a dick he is and a fucking sleezeball!

Yet I still fucking like him.

What the HELL is wrong with me?

I suppose it bothers me that he didn't even care enough to apologize to me? And I dunno, I'm probably gonna go off on him if he tries talking to me again like he did on monday. It was just so fucking weird. I caught him avoiding me, so he acted all frazzled like HI IM NOT AVOIDING YOU and then he waited on me outside like he wanted me to come talk to him? And I pretty much gave him a look like, "go fuck yourself."

So I hate him, but I don't. I've just been ignoring him for the past few days. And he wrote this stupid fucking poem on his stupid fucking facebook about how much he really likes this girl and I can tell he's not talking about me.

Why does that bother me so much?

He drives me crazy and I hate him for it.

....lol, I feel sorry for anyone who reads this. >>

Tuesday, 29 July 2008

*sigh*

I'm just upset about how my life always ends up. It always happens to me where I like a guy and he always likes my friend, not me.

Don't worry, Courtney. This isn't your fault and you shouldn't feel bad about it. I'm not mad at you. You know I didn't really want him.

It's just got me thinking about how often this happens to me. I mean, I've only had one boyfriend in my fucking lifetime, and I met him on yahoo personals. I'm sure if one of my friends got to him first, he would've wanted her instead of me.

I just don't understand what I'm doing wrong. I've worked so hard to change my appearance.

To make an all-around better improved Mary.

But it doesn't even seem to matter.

whatever, you get my point. I just feel like it doesn't matter what I do. Guys are always going to pick my friends over me.

Why should I even try?

Please don't comment this with things like, "omg! You're pretty!" I don't wanna hear that shit.

If you choose to comment at all, just tell me what's wrong with me or what I could do to better myself.

Saturday, 19 July 2008

My shit's so hot I leave the toilet bowl steamin'

I'm at work and bored out of my mind. :)

I complained about being hungry to Will, so he brought me some tea and a sausage biscuit.

I thought it was a very sweet gesture even though he was a total ass when we dated.

:D

Mary needs a man.